Urggg. I'm so angry I could kill something. I came home sick today in the middle of second period due to feeling like up-chucking m stomach. Thankfuly, I didn't. Instead, I have pink eye. What's worse is my mom is really sick too.

So, I HATE cocky men. I hate them with a passion. They're so full of themselves, they should all just jump off a cliff. I was walking in the over-crowded halls of my over-populated (^-^) school and this guy rams his shoulder into my face. Yes, my face, not my shoulder. Ugh! Tall, cocky men!

Don't turn around and say sorry. Dude, I understand. I get it that men like you are so egotistic and ass holes that you can't even apologise. Understandable. But... why my face? My eye has been hurting more than enough. If I was more confident and unafraid of consequences, I would've turned around and stuck up for myself. I fail at that skill, so I've noticed.

Okay, I was... still in? this group of really wonderful friends. Before last school year ended, things were amazing. But... as soon as summer began, we began to lose touch. This school year sprouted out of no where like a weed. None but two of you still keep in touch with me. Is it because we have a class together and you don't want to make things awkward? Am I just too weird and quiet to be around? Is it because I fail at many things? What's wrong with me then?! Why can't I keep friends? Is it because everyone is now going their separate ways? I understand that but I don't want it to continue. I'm being naive.

I don't want this final happiness to end.

So I have friends this year. They're closer than they were last year. I'm beginning to feel like I can trust them. But, I made a huge mistake yesterday. I should've never said anything about the way I feel. It doesn't matter and I don't see why I brought it up above the surface. Do I belong somewhere? I have... a family... friends... shouldn't I put a little more trust in things? Can I blame it on my lack of optimism? Yes. I think I shall.

By the way, friends: All of you are included in this. I love you all and I don't want to screw up ties and friendships between myself and others. I have a painful habit of believing in the worse. And close one, do realize that I miss you. Don't ever forget what I've said to you in the past. I almost never break promises, you can count on that.

In regards to what was just said, if I get annoying, rude, stupid, ect. do slap me. Do something to make me realize I've done wrong. Normally I'll catch myself or stop myself from even saying something. There are times when it does slip though. I am human. All I ask is for acceptance and forgiveness. Might I add, love? Just to be corny...

~Heroshi